Turn Back the Clock

by Jotter girl on September 23, 2012


My tears have shaken him.

He begs,

begging me to reverse my desperation.

I have frightened his boy heart,

perhaps even broken it.


Six words of recklessness,

raking the grief laden air.


We melt together,

his grip holding me here.

Honoring the weight of his anchor, I encircle his body,

catching his fear.


Restless, he sleeps next to me now.

Crying out.


Searching for a good dream.

I watch through liquid eyes,

wishing I could make it 9:02 again.




For my son Nicholas.

{ 19 comments… read them below or add one }

Shelly Gregory September 23, 2012 at 7:21 pm

So, touching. So deep.


Jotter girl September 23, 2012 at 7:39 pm

Thanks Shelly, I’ve been wanting to write this poem for many months now. I am hoping getting it on paper, will give me some peace.


JP September 23, 2012 at 7:21 pm



Jotter girl September 23, 2012 at 7:40 pm

Wow upside down spells Mom. This is a poem from an anguished mom to her boy.


Barbara September 23, 2012 at 7:27 pm



Jotter girl September 23, 2012 at 7:43 pm

Thanks Barbara, it was an extremely powerful event in my life as a Mom.


OpinionsToGo September 23, 2012 at 7:28 pm

I read it twice. I loved it twice!


Poet Laundry September 23, 2012 at 7:47 pm

An intense piece. The mom in me really felt it.


Jotter girl September 23, 2012 at 7:50 pm

Thanks, the mom in me has been feeling it for about 6 months and I’ve finally been able to get in on paper.


KiKi September 23, 2012 at 8:52 pm

Holy crap, that is gorgeous. I’m kind of a poetry snob, and that was stunning. Xo


Jotter girl September 23, 2012 at 9:24 pm

I am honored you think so. Thanks girl!


Tanya September 24, 2012 at 12:33 am

Wow! What a lovely poem. I just came across your blog, terrific piece of poetry. :) Take care


Mary September 24, 2012 at 8:07 am

What a strong poem of regret. I definitely can empathize with the desire to turn back the clock, not to have said certain words…that once said can never be retracted.


Rashmi September 24, 2012 at 12:16 pm

Beautiful and powerful poem…


Criss September 25, 2012 at 7:40 am

Very good. I liked the drama of it. Much emotion. You are a very talented writer.


Real Dad September 29, 2012 at 8:57 am

Great poem! Glad you got it out. Now I wish I had a talent!


Jotter girl October 1, 2012 at 7:33 pm

Thanks. Real Dad’s read poetry!


Criss October 1, 2012 at 8:55 am

Thank you ^_^


Real Dad October 1, 2012 at 8:03 pm

Only yours! ;)


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